ANC220 - Week 3

OK there's a lot of work going on. Between work and school I have a single day off - this just isn't enough. I'm trying really hard to make this work but somethings gotta give. I reluctantly told my manager that I might need to drop a shift as I'd need more than 1 day off each week. This of course now impacts my standard of living, but "que sera".

OK, I'm jaded. It's been a tough week - penalty rates were cut by "Fair" work Australia which reduces my already paltry salary and I've fallen ill with a cold which is making studying in this 32 degree heat almost unbearable.

Complaining does nothing constructive, i know that. I need to drink a glass of HTFU and move on because i know that it's this exact tenacity and drive which will get me ahead of the kids who complain that their 4 days away from school isn't enough to get the job done.

So, how is the work going? Well it's going slowly at present. I put about 6 hours in today working on my 3rd model for Nigel's workshop class. And due to some issues I"m having with my first model, I'll now need to pick a new object and redo one of them. This has now increased my work for that assignment by 33%. As for studio? Well I haven't got around to that yet - we're meant to submit concept work for the new script - I aim to do that after this blog post because tbh I felt that by ranting here in my blog, I might relive some of the stress that I'm under and be in a better mind set to achieve what I personally believe to be, a underprepared task.

Personal study? Well I think I've set myself up for a damn stroke - In this ridiculous alternate reality that I sometimes live in, I had this great idea that I'd go and model/render up to a dozen assets by the end of the Tri. Let me repeat that I have a single day off in the entire week. Between the mandatory course work, class hours, studio project, CIU, my job and commuting time to and from SAE I have literally a couple dozen hours left over in the week assuming I continue my sleeping pattern of 6 hours per night - which very well could be the contributing factor to my current illness. Note that there's no social life included in that calculation. I don't get to have one those at the moment, which I hear is great for mental stability. Whoops, there I go again, complaining. #firstworldproblems

So what will I do? Well Phil felt that I could try and pool those assets together and create a game level as an idea where all those objects have a home and come together holistically. I actually think it's a brilliant idea and spent a couple hours coming up with a plan which at the end of the class, he didn't approve of. I might still go ahead with it, but that's only if I can't find the time to come up with another idea - which with things the way they are, I don't.

And then, there's CIU...

What to do about this all. Ok well I need to start seriously considering which direction my personal study is going to go. I have a shit load of research I need to do because the tasks that I want to attempt involve skills that I don't have. So I need to put the time into learning what i don't know, and then actually doing it. And hopefully through trial and a lot of error, I'll get better at it and it won't all suck and I'll have something for a showreel at the end of the Tri. I can then use that to apply for the internship I thought I'd be attempting this Tri. LOL can you believe that? I actually thought I'd get away with doing my 80 hours internship this term. That's wishful thinking.

This was a terrible blog. Sorry.

- Ryan